Yesterday, when we thought that life is almost back to normal - Fred has recovered from chicken-pox and we could re-locate him together with other boys again - I discovered the chicken-pox spots on Ralf and Sten... after we did the bath.The reality hit me soooo hard. Do I really have to go through all this again, having a crying, aching, sad, impassive, sensitive baby again - and this time, not 1 baby, but 2 at the same time?!? Oh, do I have strength to do it? I was so sad yesterday night... I struggled a lot when Fred was sick and the others were healthy, and I cannot imagine the situation can be even harder, because it was the hardest I could deal with. And now, I'm having sick Ralf and sick Sten...
Fred still has spots, too, but all of them are healing well. Today Ralf and Sten still have relatively good mood and their spots are only in the developing-phase, so they do not itch, yet. The hardest days with Fred were the day 3, 4 and 5. I'm scared of those days with Ralf and Sten...
I'm mad at God right now - why did he create viruses to the world?!??
Prediction for this week: many sleepless nights and lots of baby-cries...
1 comment:
oh, I'm so sorry to read this...
be strong Karin, they will always appreciate your support on this difficult days in their life.
and just think, if it's hard for you, imagine they are in pain and all they can do is: CRY!:)
i'm sure you'll do just fine.
all the best for them.
taka care
lots of love
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